The Synergistic Pen

Random thought #1: Men landed on the moon 40 years ago. I remember that. Damn.
Random thought #2: My 30th class reunion is in 7 weeks. I suppose I should go. Double Damn.
Random thought #3: I love the way God makes people stop and pay attention, don't you? Don't miss the total eclipse of the sun Wednesday, July 22nd.
Random thought #4: Speaking of July 22nd... happy 105th birthday granny... hope you and granpa and daddy and uncle and all the rest of yall are having fun in heaven...
Random thought #5: I look amazing for my age... thanks moms! (ok... vanity moment over)
Random thought #6: I am both nervous and excited about my new job I'm starting in August. Its been a minute since I've stepped out on faith and it all worked out well. This new adventure in education will take me someplace I need to go and I will be better for the experience I am sure...
Random thought # 7: When I get my student loans paid off, I do believe I'll work on my Masters. Just what will I major in?
Random thought #8: I need to write more. My head is about to burst.
Random thought #9: My jewelry is HOT... why aren't I excited about this?
Random thought #10: Mama C is gonna be ok!! yea team!!!
Random thought #11: I knew my second born child being a pleasure to raise was a smoke screen... give me strength Lord...
Random thought #12: Nice ass... wait... ok.. I'm ok... where was I?
Random thought #13: I need a new laptop... scratch that .. I WANT a new laptop...
Random thought #14: What recession?
Random thought #15: My bible study buddies and I are being lead "outside the gate"... I wonder what God REALLY wants of us out here in the wilderness?
Random thought #16: I want another cat... how can I convince hubby that 2 cats isn't any more work than one?
Random thought #17: Chocolate, cream and raspberry? on my living room walls? mmmmmm
Random thought #18: C has a dorm room to herself this year... will reiterate the importance of me not becoming a grandmother before my time...
Random thought #19: Reiterate same to J.
Random thought #20: Reiterate the importance of ending my fertile years without a hitch to both my doctor and husband...
Random thought #21: Write letter to congressman and senator concerning health care reform. Make it forceful and forthright...
Random thought #22: Take lawn chair to beach and sit there til the sun goes down...today.
Random thought #23: Smile at random people ...
Random thought #24: I think I hate my cousin... pray about that more.
Random thought #25: Plan October mental health weekend... I need it already...
Random thought #26: Write a letter to Pat Buchanan and ask him seriously, why he's so.. afraid.
Random thought #27: Drop a note on the WhiteHouse.org site just to say "good job so far, keep up the good job"
Random thought #28: Check into Facebook Addiction counselling...
Random thought #29: Finish the bracelet, will ya... and the choker too...
Random thought #30: I think I'll get my Masters in Sociology... what the hell...
Random thought #31: Stop and go make jewelry or something...
Random thought #32: Man I love vacation... so much time for randomness...

ok... I'm done... for now...


sigh... amani na baraka rafikis...

I participate in a couple of faith and religion forums online. My brand of spiritual awareness tends to unnerve a few professed Christians. I explain that I was raised in the Presbyterian Church and fully believe and accept that Jesus is my Lord and Savior. I work hard to live my life as Jesus has taught us to live... all so I can know God's love in spirit and truth... as Jesus explains it in the Gospels...

However, I'm not a trinitarian. I don't call myself a Christian. I don't get caught up in the Pauline doctrine that is the modern Christian religion. This bothers some people I interact with in the forums.

Just the other day, after repeating for the 17gabillionth time the statement I've made above, someone "pretends" she was lurking and wanders into a thread I'm participating in. She makes the comment (as interpreted by her) that I am a strong Christian (I said I was had in a strong Christian background, not the same thing, or is it?), and that I seem to be able to quote and interpret scripture pretty well (well thanks total stranger for thinking that about me) . Yet, because I occasionally will say that dreaded word "hell" or "damn", and every now and again will speak of my spiritual leader (instead of saying pastor or bishop, mmmmmm), she felt it necessary to ask me if I was a Christian.

I didn't answer her. She'd already decided I wasn't so why bother. I wasn't up for a veiled attempt at "conversion" from someone who freely admits she's a Christian neophyte....

She, naturally, became frustrated at my desire not to capitulate to her questioning (they always do), told me that having a conversation with me was like pulling teeth and she wasn't a dentist (haha, funny.) and then wandered off into the sunset.

I have a question. Why do some people insist upon sizing a person up before engaging them in conversation? If you are as spiritually sound as you enjoy projecting to the world, why not just jump on into the pool and swim out out to me? Why stand on the edge and ask about the temperature of the water?
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People who aren't comfortable in their skin, literal or spiritual, tend to attempt to control their environments. Its a defense mechanism bordering on full fledged manipulation of their environment. "I will let in only those who think as I do and that I don't have to play the dummy with when we have a conversation." If ANYONE says anything that I'm not sure of, I'll check them out first, "tell them about themselves" (cus naturally, I've read 2 or 3 of your posts and I know so much about you) and then, politely get you to be what makes me comfortable. If you don't do what I say, I'll insult you, damn you to hell, and then go and gossip about you with others.

Gotta love church folk, huh?

Well, just for the record, in case anyone wants to know... again, I"m not a trinitarian. If you want to know why, send me a note, I'll explain it to you. Also, I don't belong to an organized assembly, nor do I show up anywhere on Sundays. Again, only the genuinely spiritually curious need email me.

The rest of you "biblebeating, my pastor didn't give me permission to think this week, amen sistagurl, she IS going to hell, isn't she" fine, upstanding "Christians"... have a nice week.

I read a post on a forum today with a picture of President Obama presumably giving a young lady the once over. Naturally, the person that posted the picture had something negative to say about it... why not? ignant people tend to find ignant things to say... basically the commentary was... will Michelle approve? people tell so much about themselves in the things they say, don't they?


FOR THE RECORD.... this is what the VIDEO shows President Obama doing...




why must we keep up so much mess? WHY?

not sure if this is my favorite or not...but, it still makes me tingle...
of all the "bad", the "crazy", the "hurtful"... that went on in his life...
we forget the "good", the "upstanding", the "uplifting" that went on in his life...

enjoy....

I swear, this particular day of the year bugs me. Part of the problem is the firecrackers this little brat across the alley insists upon exploding every day for at least a week before the holiday, early in the morning. I hope he has used up his alottment... I pray he has used up his alottment.

The other problem I have with his particular day of the year is the way most people aren't really clear on what is being celebrated. Some think its about who can best cook a large piece of pork. Others think its about standing around in uniforms and saluting flags. Some think its about sleeping all day. Others figure driving miles away from home to sit around with family and talking shit is the order of the day.

I have no idea why we celebrate this holiday anymore. White folk don't appreciate freedom, everyone else (folk without pink skin) have never really been free, so its just a day off to us, I suppose.

I spent the day wondering if I should repaint the pin stripping I did on my son's wall yesterday, doing some updating on my jewelry website (have you been there yet, no? git there dammit)... and listening to my husband have a really nice conversation with our daughter, who, with her brother, is spending the summer in Florida.

Then I went shopping. Yes, shopping. I don't care if there's a recession, I need shea butter and earrings. Ok, I didn't need earrings, but I like to support my sisters out there making handmade jewelry... so I bought some stuff at the annual caribbean festival ... it was raining... so, shopping was easy. I don't mind getting wet.

what was the question again?

Oh yeah, this particular day of the year no longer has meaning to me. I have always assumed I was free, I KNOW that my freedom is not dependent on anything any "american" did for me... although I am eternally grateful to all members of the armed forces for sacrifices made. Thank you all...

but... this particular day of the year...I don't know yall...tell me... should I care? Well, there are the fireworks... I like fireworks... (smile)